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 Weirdlig
   
Gender: Female
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< on 12/19/2013 5:09 PM >
|  | | | The snow and cold have hit southern NH and I don’t anticipate I’ll find the energy to take many more photos this year. Therefore, here’s my long-winded and photo heavyish 2013.
2013 has been a nonstop conveyor belt of opening misfortune cookies. None of said fortunes have been accurate or contained my lucky number. Despite the constant stress and hovering sense of dread, and despite being budget-quarantined to a 20 mile radius for eleven months, I’m happy with the results. I don’t think I failed at anything this year.
Get Lost
My last uploaded photo for 2012 seems oddly relevant.
~Jan~
Several Seasons
The first day of the year would also end up the last day of the year I stayed at an asylum. While 2012 had been nothing but pissing time away shooting big buildings, this experience left an odd taste in my mouth.
Chores
Neighbors
Hydrotherapy
As much as I love the place and as much as I love this type of stuff in general I guess it dawned on me that I went where everyone went, shot what everyone shot, and the place got all fucked up as a result. Day one broke it for me. I took UER seriously and had a bad time.
~.~
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Then I just got fucking tired of everything. I felt too scattered and too empty for every reason I can think of. I think the awkward photos of a crappy place while listening to bad music summed up the existential dilemma more than anything else I could have done.
Brightblock
Love Jesus Or Die
~.~
Pardon
Spent some time alone.
Isolating
Searched
Three Channels, Nothing On
~.~
Compilation
Another attempt at escape, but my boss called amidst everything to try to get me in to work. Then someone I cared about became ill and I had to scoot early.
With Caution
Long Way Back
Data
Party in the Other Room
~.~
Some random experiments, quick stops, and projects kept my mind clean.
Keyhole
Cathedral
Highway
Million Miles
I managed to catch a lost homing pigeon at work and we brought her back to health over the remains of winter. We let Dexter go in the park when the season improved.
Dexter
~Feb~
Insomnia
So here is where I believe I left my piece of mind, or better yet just outside the property before entry. It took me some time to find it again, I’m grateful it was where I left it.
Hanging On
Weeping
They All Fall Down
I still loathe the photos all this time later, they vividly display all the things I was thinking. I just paced the building and smoked about half a pack, dreading everything outside of the building. I had never felt so trapped as I did inside this doorless shack of a farm.
~.~
Warp
Old dinosaur of an ipod dies and I live in silence.
Intrusion
Massabesic Lake
First Step
~April~
Mascara
It’s my birthday and shit hits the fan! How interesting it is in retrospect, I suppose I have a lot to say here. I spent too long screwing off because I was angry and confused…let’s call it karma for the sake of labeling convenience.
So I lose my home to a bad roommate, lose my job to a bad boss, and lose my mind to the relentless stress of the mortal coil. On April 10th I quit smoking, April 11th I celebrated my birthday alone in this house, April 12th I started an awful new job, and on April 13th I packed and moved all my possessions to a new place across town. Even the moving help bailed on me, I don’t think there was a second for three months I wasn’t gritting my teeth to migraine level.
Open Mind
Closet Apothecary
Third Wheel
~May/June~
Curtains
I spent a long time devoid of motivation or creativity. Somehow it lifted when I started noticing exaggerated shadows and light patterns. Trying something new was relieving and usually didn’t involve a dollar of gas for my new budget of “just no”.
Xylophone
Electric Slide
Lashes
I did start missing the old buildings. I didn’t have the time or cash to get far from home but I had hours here and there plus ideas. I went back to some old works and tried a few new concepts.
Sunrise in the dark
Hideaway
~July~
ill
Broken Neck
Lover noticed something through the trees and I had a target to finally try some new ideas with. I think the art hang-up was one of the best things I’ve done for this hobby so far, eventually everything I saw was a photo and all I could focus on was concept.
I suppose it was fortunate that the house was barely accessible. The hiker’s dog had caught me on the grounds and rather than booted I was given details of the house and some friendly banter. Each time the guy returned seemed to be moments after I was done trying to fit into the hoarder home.
Headache
Bulimia
Galaxy
Disjointed
Exploder
~Aug~
Trojan Horse Digestive Track
What a mess. The farm had suffered some serious damage from New England winters and as soon as I realized it looked like a mauled snake carcass I had to check it out!
Snake Torn Open
Jumpingjack
Tall as the Giant
Automate
Secret Deathstar Weakness
~.~
Lime Pie
Being stuck indoors and working my ass off was really starting to beat on me towards the end of summer. I had taken a second job as mover and driving all over the state was pretty rough seeing as I couldn't pull over to check out any of the old buildings. Went back to some old photos for manipulation again.
Citrus Seats
Jello Cubes
Pie Crust
~Sept~
Goodnight, Moon!
This house sure sucked but I found an ipod out of it, so groovy I guess. Music problem super solved.
Cardiograph of a robot
Audience/Applause
Elephant In The Room
For a renovated house with new aluminum siding I was quite surprised to see this abstract three-sided colonial fireplace in the kitchen center.
~.~
Foggy lot, September morning
Where the outlets end
~.~
Broken Home
Then I got myself sick as fuck. No respirator didn’t end up being the good idea it was in the year’s former half.
Mask
Homesick
Shields
~.~
Dissociated Zebra stripes as distanced Cylinders
Blue Hour
3
Tall as giants
~Octo~
Night Light
A revisit to a place from last year showed…tenants? I was fortunate to arrive when the squatters were out but despite the respects I carried I did feel like an actual trespasser.
Blown Away
Straight Up
Eaten
~Nov~
Unzip
Eventually the urge to revisit the farmhouse from March became unavoidable. Every aspect of what was eating me on that first visit had improved. I wanted to see if the building had improved to me in any way…but all I can really say is I shot with more skill than before.
Key
~.~
Keep Off
Last explore of the year. Bleeding profusely from the hand did not prove a threat to creative application.
Frame
Ghost
~fin~
It looks the same way any reconciliation of a year’s photographs would. Here’s the date, the photo, some blurb about this and that. I suppose it isn’t really much beyond that to anyone else but this is what held me together when it felt like everything was destined to collapse.
I feel like there were two major components to 2013 and they relate and intertwine. My life got better, my photos got better. I don’t know if either side could have held up without one another.
So as the year ends I’m eight months smoke free, employment has stabilized, I have a decent home. All the insane clutter that usually collides in the orbit of these big problems has settled and a week’s events no longer resemble shrapnel.
2014, we’ll see. I wouldn’t have predicted this year and won’t try to predict the next one…I just plan to keep shooting!
~
Trying to artistically fit between the lines on a big stupid couch
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cdevon
 
Location: west county
Gender: Male
| |  | Re: ~2013 [pic heavy]
<Reply # 1 on 12/19/2013 6:07 PM >
| | | | GOOD SHIT!
When I say I'm 'clean and sober', it means I've showered and I'm headed to the liquor store. |
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Kurt
  
Location: Taxachusetts
Gender: Male
NEVER SAY DEVER!
| | | Re: ~2013 [pic heavy]
<Reply # 2 on 12/19/2013 6:21 PM >
| | | | Good stuff man! Love it all around
"What is your favorite thing about Belchertown?"
"...the history, man" |
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SiteUnseen
 
Location: Oklahoma
Gender: Male
Come and get me...
| | Re: ~2013 [pic heavy]
<Reply # 3 on 12/19/2013 6:23 PM >
| | | | I don't think I've ever read a post this long without getting bored and moving on. Your shots are great, the captions are fantastic, and the story is captivating.
There's talent here, folks.
Thoroughly enjoyed. Cheers.
https://www.flickr...photos/siteunseen/ |
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freeside
Location: Northern California
Gender: Male
eh vigo!
| | Re: ~2013 [pic heavy]
<Reply # 5 on 12/19/2013 8:15 PM >
| | | | Thanks. I really enjoyed the write up. It mirrors some of my own internal battles and their imposition/effect on my creativity. Your June photos with more shadow awareness are my favorite and the best of the whole lot IMHO.
Congrats on being smoke free. I'm in the middle of a battle to quit chewing and it's fucking rough.
-free
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relik
Location: 44.26126°,-88.41502° (Appleton, WI)
Gender: Male
There is no truth, Only a perspective.
| | | Re: ~2013 [pic heavy]
<Reply # 6 on 12/20/2013 12:41 AM >
| | | | Beautiful work, brother.
"When it rains, just find bigger drains." |
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urbanjoe
Location: Georgia
Gender: Male
| |  | | Re: ~2013 [pic heavy]
<Reply # 8 on 12/20/2013 2:24 AM >
| | | | Did someone get you a tricycle for your birthday?? lol Speechless, you are mega-talented! Very inspiring work my friend!
http://www.flickr.com/photos/urbanjoe/ |
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decrepitude
Location: Norcal
Gender: Male
| | Re: ~2013 [pic heavy]
<Reply # 9 on 12/20/2013 3:18 AM >
| | | | Lots of lovely images. I would say that's a good year.
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Tcherno
Location: Montréal, PQ
Gender: Male
| | Re: ~2013 [pic heavy]
<Reply # 10 on 12/20/2013 4:27 AM >
| | | | Simply amazing !
You have a very good eye !
"Night is in the eye of the beholder"
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Million Dollar Man
Location: Massachusetts
Gender: Male
| | | Re: ~2013 [pic heavy]
<Reply # 11 on 12/20/2013 2:46 PM >
| | | | Congrats on quitting smoking dude! Great shots and a great read
Before a big explore I like to work with leather. The Native Americans always said that working with hides and pelts releases the soul. |
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macgruder
Location: Northern NJ
Gender: Male
| | | | Re: ~2013 [pic heavy]
<Reply # 12 on 12/20/2013 3:22 PM >
| | | | Nice work, you definitely improved as the year went on.
I never listen to music while exploring, I feel it'll cheat the experience. I also feel that i should keep all my senses aware of my surroundings, for safety reasons.
Canon 5D Mark III, Canon 50mm 1.2, Canon 28mm 1.8, Canon 16-35 f2.8L
http://www.flickr.com/photos/stevenbley/ |
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Weirdlig
Gender: Female
| | Re: ~2013 [pic heavy]
<Reply # 13 on 12/21/2013 12:36 AM >
| | | | Thanks!
Posted by SiteUnseen
I don't think I've ever read a post this long without getting bored and moving on.
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Well I'm glad it worked out that way, haha. I inherited life story syndrome from my father but apparently it works with added visuals.
Posted by rockandrollfreak
I'm glad we connected on social networking and I've been able to mostly silently follow along with you all year. |
Thanks man, and same here. It's been really cool to see your progress this year, I think you've really done alot.
Posted by freeside
Thanks. I really enjoyed the write up. It mirrors some of my own internal battles and their imposition/effect on my creativity. Your June photos with more shadow awareness are my favorite and the best of the whole lot IMHO.
Congrats on being smoke free. I'm in the middle of a battle to quit chewing and it's fucking rough.
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I'm glad you can identify with my thread but I suppose I'm also sorry for it as well. Sometimes only art can be a competitor to stress so I get the idea artists must be some of the most stressed out folks in the world! Keep fighting the nicotine. The average withdrawal attack ends after five minutes, and when that doesn't work then just wait longer. All bad ends.
Posted by urbanjoe
Did someone get you a tricycle for your birthday?? lol Speechless, you are mega-talented! Very inspiring work my friend!
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Thanks Joe, come your birthday I'll send the long/lat and you can pick it up for yourself. The first shot in this thread is from the ride home that last time we met up.
Posted by Million Dollar Man
Congrats on quitting smoking dude! Great shots and a great read
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Thanks, man. I sincerely believe it was Logan smoking that gross Dever cig that inspired me this whole time.
Posted by macgruder
Nice work, you definitely improved as the year went on.
I never listen to music while exploring, I feel it'll cheat the experience. I also feel that i should keep all my senses aware of my surroundings, for safety reasons.
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Thanks, Steven. Most of the places I've seen this year have been sturdy and secluded but I keep an ear phone out or just don't bother when there's any risk. Music usually balances my mood so it can make for some decent inspiration.
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Tenebrae
Location: The Wild West
Life's short; eat dessert first.
| | Re: ~2013 [pic heavy]
<Reply # 14 on 12/21/2013 1:34 PM >
| | | | Incredible set: fantastic on numerous levels (composition, story, etc.)
Love the frank journal-style account of the year's experience (sorry you've had such a rough time).
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L'Ali
Location: Clarington
Gender: Female
Behind every damsel is a fire breathing dragon
| | Re: ~2013 [pic heavy]
<Reply # 15 on 12/21/2013 3:33 PM >
| | | | I love what you did with Sunrise in the Dark. Good set.
Everything is sweetened by risk.
-- Alexander Smith
http://www.flickr....hotos/11765127@N08 |
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puddlejumper12
Location: Rochester, NY
Gender: Male
| | | Re: ~2013 [pic heavy]
<Reply # 16 on 12/21/2013 4:19 PM >
| | | | I've never been so interested in year recap like I was here. This was great. You took some excellent shots and put within the context of your story it really added to the thread. Great work! Glad the tough times are in the mirror. Keep it up and hopefully 2014 treats you well!
Facebook: https://www.facebo...ejumperphotography
Flickr: http://www.flickr....otos/63094046@N06/ |
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