I first got to know of Ninj through his website and webring back in 97, i think. I was enthralled when i first found his website, and i still am whenever i go back to the infiltration site to re-read the stories.
but it wasn't just his body of writing or the wittiness of his stories that made me feel so much respect and fondness for him; it was the fact that he was always, unfailingly encouraging to other people. He put a lot of energy into going out of his way to be nice, in a way that is rare and really quite wonderful. The first time a wrote a story for Jinx, before i had ever really corresponded with Ninj, i got email from him out of the blue, telling me that he had read it and really enjoyed it and i had done a good job. I was both a little flabbergasted-- ninj was reading MY stories?-- and also really, really encouraged. The same kind of thing happened as i was setting up a new website a few years back--- i had been meaning to ask him if i could join the infil ring again but before i got around to it, i got an email from him saying he'd been looking at my site and would i like to join the ring again? Basically, he just made the effort to be friendly and supportive with me and others whether or not we deserved it-- and by doing so he really encouraged my writing, my photography, and my explorations, all of which are things that i am really proud of. which maybe is part of why i am so incredibly saddened by the news of his death, to a degree that is way, way out of proportion to the very few times i actually met him in person.
I guess what it all boils down to is just that i think he was a really great guy and i'll miss him very much. from the first time that i had seen his website or read his posts on the infil or underground mailing lists back in the late 90s, I had hoped that someday i would meet him; but in my thoughts it be like an acolyte meeting a guru; i thought maybe i would make a pilgrimage to his doorstep to pay my respects to him, or something like that. but he never gave me the chance to approach him as an acolyte approaches a master, because from the very first time we corresponded to the last time we met, he insisted on treating me as a peer and a friend.
Liz & Jeff's family: I am more sorry than i can say for your loss, and as the chorus of posts shows, this loss is also deeply felt by me and by many others.
but it wasn't just his body of writing or the wittiness of his stories that made me feel so much respect and fondness for him; it was the fact that he was always, unfailingly encouraging to other people. He put a lot of energy into going out of his way to be nice, in a way that is rare and really quite wonderful. The first time a wrote a story for Jinx, before i had ever really corresponded with Ninj, i got email from him out of the blue, telling me that he had read it and really enjoyed it and i had done a good job. I was both a little flabbergasted-- ninj was reading MY stories?-- and also really, really encouraged. The same kind of thing happened as i was setting up a new website a few years back--- i had been meaning to ask him if i could join the infil ring again but before i got around to it, i got an email from him saying he'd been looking at my site and would i like to join the ring again? Basically, he just made the effort to be friendly and supportive with me and others whether or not we deserved it-- and by doing so he really encouraged my writing, my photography, and my explorations, all of which are things that i am really proud of. which maybe is part of why i am so incredibly saddened by the news of his death, to a degree that is way, way out of proportion to the very few times i actually met him in person.
I guess what it all boils down to is just that i think he was a really great guy and i'll miss him very much. from the first time that i had seen his website or read his posts on the infil or underground mailing lists back in the late 90s, I had hoped that someday i would meet him; but in my thoughts it be like an acolyte meeting a guru; i thought maybe i would make a pilgrimage to his doorstep to pay my respects to him, or something like that. but he never gave me the chance to approach him as an acolyte approaches a master, because from the very first time we corresponded to the last time we met, he insisted on treating me as a peer and a friend.
Liz & Jeff's family: I am more sorry than i can say for your loss, and as the chorus of posts shows, this loss is also deeply felt by me and by many others.