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UER Forum > Journal Index > Engels view on the world. > why i <3 the ignore function of my brain. (Viewed 1326 times)
why i <3 the ignore function of my brain.
entry by engel 
2/23/2010 4:23 AM

So, I met this guy through my job back in about September/October. We are going to call him Steve. (Sorry to all you Steve's out there, but its the first thing that came to mind.)

So, Steve and I became good friends, and we started spending a-lot of time together, working. My husband and I have a semi open relationship, so the same old same old boy meets girl, they fuck, its great, life's good.

so about 2 months later, Steve's girlfriend, starts wearing on him. Steve's job is getting to him. It's corporate. They keep 90% of the money, and give a small amount to there employees. Steve misses his ex, and his family. He breaks up with said GF, yet continues to care for her, spends time with her, helps her out. doesn't pick up his camera for a while, stops working with any and all models.

My husband and I have to leave our apartment, and move in with friends. Steve bitches that we never get to see each other, talk, or shoot. I calmly explain to him, i'm busy, your busy, and am now living farther than before from you.

Fast forward to last week. I get a message from Steve saying, i need to talk to you. I message him back, we talk, and talk about a new job opportunity for the 2 of us. a website, fully dedicated to photographs, stories, models, and a photo comic strip made only of art nudes and erotic nudes. I quickly agree that this would be a great idea, and we should start getting it together. he asks me, do you have any ideas? I say yes, and name some off. He loves the idea of the bondage in abandonment's. awesome. So, i write up about 15 detailed ideas, and email them to him. 30% are of bondage. I have a friend who would be tying me up, practicing safety, and knots, as well as suspension, and shibari. Steve says this sounds like a great idea, lets go for it. I explain to him, that I will need to get together with my friend, to practice said knots, and make sure i can be safe as well, while still being able to preform my job.

So, my thinking that Steve can be an adult about other people, and people he works with, i set up something with my bondage friend. on a Saturday. I spoke to Steve that evening, saying, lets shoot on a friday night, so i can have time to do my thing on Saturday, after i explained what said thing was. *NOTE* friend and I ARE NOT sleeping together. He doesn't have an open relationship, and isn't interested in sleeping with me, nor am I with him.

Steve gets really quiet, and i say, whats the issue? he goes "doesn't your friend have a wife? why cant he practice on her?" I respond with "she has a kid, and isn't into being tied up, and they don't see each other often" he then responds with "well, i'm not interested." "and I say, "ok" and left at that.

My husband isn't allowing me to work with him anymore, for a number of reasons. I am not working with him anymore, because he has cancelled on me, multiple times. he has given me more mood swings than a pregnant woman, and has for lack of a better term, been a little bitch and isn't being professional period.

So, i'm reeling from all this. i'm upset, i'm confused, i am afraid that I am never going to work with anyone ever again. and I feel like its all my fault, for doing or saying something.


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