Screwing up life in general entry by Jennibel 7/11/2005 3:32 AM
Well, I've went & done it again... I guess I'll never learn to not listen to 3rd party info... or if I do listen then I should go back to confirm or ask for clarification before I fly off the handle & accuse. I've now lost at least 1 good friend because of my stupidity. If only there was a way I could go back & change things; if only I could take back what I said; if only I didnt listen to what was 'supposedly' being said; if only... If only there was a way I could explain what had happened & admit I was wrong--that I am so sorry that I accused him & pissed him off (or pissed a lot of people off). I am so unhappy about how things turned out... But I'm sure he won't read my emails since he said he's now ignoring me...nor will be willing to talk to me if I call.
My friends all expect me to be there to listen to their problems but when I have problems they're too busy to listen. I'm so at a loss as what to do... I miss his friendship so much. I just wish I could let him know how sorry I am... it probably wouldn't do any good but at least then I'd know I gave it a shot. No one can imagine what I feel like know...how much I hurt. I wish people would stop thinking it's funny to say something to me (that was said about me) & be completely honest about it & then a couple of days later admit it was all made up & that no one said those things about me. By then, it's too late...
God, I wish I could just turn a deaf ear to what is said about me...to just ignore it. If I don't express any concern then I'm called a cold, heartless bitch but then if I do say something in my defense then I'm being too sensitive & need to lighten up & have a sense of humor. There never seems to be a happy medium...here or in anything I do.
I'm sorry that I ever said anything to anyone or listened to anyone...or involved anyone. Maybe the best thing to so is cut my losses & go away? At least I have my memories...bittersweet as they are.
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Re: Screwing up life in general < Reply # 1 on 7/14/2005 7:09 PM > | Reply with Quote
Sorry that the people you mingle with are wastes of time and flesh. If someone wants to bitch and moan to you but wont let you return the favour, they arent friends they are slefish asstarts.
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Re: Screwing up life in general < Reply # 2 on 7/18/2005 3:32 PM > | Reply with Quote
Know what I think would help?
Tell the person who is upset at you who it was who fed you the inaccurate information in the first place.
A lot of the time, people get upset more (often out of proportion) because they no longer know who of their 'friends' to trust.
My .2 cents
Chris...
We all had ostriches. My dad had an ostrich farm! I remember one day someone came in and said the high altitude bombing of Kosovo had been a limited success, so we all went out and celebrated… by killing an ostrich and boiling it in kiwi fruit.